Lost Happiness 2010

How long will it be
before my smile
will return?

I just want it back.

Will someone find
away to return it
to me?

How much longer
will it be?

That smile is
because of my
happiness,
and now that
happiness is gone.

I hope someone
will find it, soon.

Confusion 2010

Darkness looms near,
I can feel it.
Will it go away?
I have no idea.

Why is it so close?
Does it have a specific
purpose for being this
close to my heart?

What is the meaning
of it being here and
existing so near to me?

Just leave 2010

Dark as night,
thougth to be long gone,
whispers in my ear,
make me shiver and
cringe away from my
worst nightmare.

Cries out in despair,
wants to be left alone.
'Just leave', I say.
But, It never will.

Tears 2010

They fall down
your face.

Happy, sad, angry,
or even just because.

leaving water
marks on
your cheeks.

Tears.

Thirst 2008

Running through
your veins
giving you life.

Crimson red,
salty-sweet.
makes me
long for more.

Mouth-watering,
drives me crazy.

Just watching
you sit there,
knowing that
its never enough.

Leaving 2008

Leaving is the easy part
it's the saying goodbye
thats hard to do.

For some both are simple
enough to deal with.
But, for those like me
neither are as simple
as they may seem.
Instead they are twice
as hard to handle.

The pain is hard to cope with
but hiding it is even worse,
crying is something that no one
likes to show.
So instead, the pillow is the
only one knowing how hard
it is for me to leave you behind
a new place and new faces.

I tried 2007

I try to be a better person
for myself and my family
I try to do whats right for
me and my heart.
I try to make him smile,
so I wouldn't feal so sad
and lonely.
I try to see the problem that
isn't even there, to know
and try to figure out whats
wrong with this.
                  

I tried so hard.

Because of You 2008

Because of you I've never
cried myself to sleep at night
Because of you I sleep silently now.
                     No tossing and turning,
                     No more dreaming of
                     what could have been.
Because of you I'm not
afraid of being alone.
                     No worring about
                     what tomorrow will
                     bring.
                     No more thinking of
                     what could have been.