My Pain 2010

You look in my eyes

and see the pain I have had

to endure,

The sadness I have had

to hide.

The help that I desperatly

needed and wanted

but was too scared to seek out

was never received.

This broken heart

is hard to heal

even when I try to feel like

I am unbroken.

I tried to keep

my broken heart

from your utterly perfect one.

But, to no anvil have I accomplished it.

Deserted 2008

My friends are gone

they have deserted me

they have left me in the dark

to find my way blind.

Im miserable all on my own

Im trapped in that old deserted

but crowded room.

My fears have returned

to hide in my thoughts

and dreams to make me

scream, to make me

hurt in agony.

They are twisting my

heart, making it crumble

to pieces, eating at my soul,

watching my life dwindle away

before my very eyes.

what is left of me?
                 

Nothing.



Companion to "Trapped"

Trapped 2008

Trapped in a crowded room

too small for even one breath,

Trapped in an empty car

not even close to my destination,

Someone save me, come and help me

out of this place that I've called my home.

Trapped in a place that seems

too small to even move

too small to even cry myself

to sleep at night.

I need to escape from

this crowded space

so I can believe in myself

and have nothing to fear.